I’m so tired – I feel like I’m running in my sleep.  There is this part of me that is hanging on somehow but I keep questioning why I’m doing this.  every time I walk out the door.  Today Zoey didn’t want me to leave. She reached up to me and she said “hold me tight” and it was the best moment.  She gives the best hugs.  They always smell like shampoo and peanut butter…

I ran 6 miles in prospect park… Huffing and puffing… It feels like i am smoking a pack a day…

Get me through these next few months.  Please!!! I can’t wait till I feel better… In terrified of everyone’s reaction but I know I’m going to kick ass during this pregnancy.  I’m going to start a production company and a branding company and they will both be amazing.  Nothing is holding me back this time.