I AM A PRIMAL BEAST… I ran 50 Minutes this AM

Rest assured – I’ve been running every day…

Unfortunately i have not had time to actually talk about my thoughts.

It amazes me that running finds itself into my schedule regardless of what goes on in my body, head, perception of the weather, and bank account.  Every other thing in my sweet life always seems to get adjusted based on circumstances relating to those 4 pillar-like components of the foundation of Planet Meirav.

Maybe it’s because nothing is as rewarding as instantaneously…

Almost nothing…

I just wanted to say one thing today – mostly because I want to make sure I remember it myself forEVER and here it goes:

I consider myself to be a badass at recognizing my primal instincts and it’s proved to be more and more important in life as i get older.  It’s also proven to be the source of all my problems and why i think every one else is an idiot.

I’m a primal beast.  I know EXACTLY what my body feels at every given moment in time and it’s totally taxing on the senses… It’s good and bad for many reasons…  Everyone feels like an open book to me… boring this… boring that… boring AGAIN?… boring this happened before (if not to me then somewhere and I can predict why and how it all ends)… BLAH

I can attribute this to my relationship with alcohol – alcohol clouds my instinct just enough for sweet relief to set in and run through my veins like methadone.  Less thinking.. less caring… less annoyance at the idiots i am forced to share this earth with…

Sweet baby Jesus… Now I sound dysfunctional…

Again.

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