I’d like to refer to last night’s events as a slight hiccup.

It all started with an innocent attending of a Lamaze class which turned out to be really alarming experience just like everything else is these days.

I did a lot of breathing and listening and then we walked home and something took over my whole body and turned me into a monster. Its like… U know how u want to say something and u stop yourself because u turn your head away from the devil on one shoulder to the angel on the other shoulder who says something along the lines of “think before you talk.  You don’t mean what you’re about to say you’re just upset.  Don’t be a bitch”

Well I turned to the shoulder where the angel was supposed to be and saw AN EVEN BIGGER DEVIL RISING IN THE MIDST OF FLAMES who basically was like “FUUUUUCKKKKK the world!!! Make him feel as BAD as possible! He doesn’t care and he doesn’t care that he doesn’t care and no one gets you and no one ever will and no one loves u and you will raise this baby alone just like in your dream last night!! BURN THE ENEMY!!”

I don’t even remember half the things I said to Amit but I remember they weren’t so friendly and happy….

It all started because I didn’t feel her move that much this week and decided it was because she passed out and has this new condition I invented that causes grogginess for life (this was the best case scenario I managed to concoct in my mind).  I needed him to comfort me and I hated that I needed that…

After the screaming and crying for a while she started moving a LOT and I fell asleep (feeling calmer) with Amit’s hand on my belly exclaiming “Wow.  Amazing, she’s twisting and turning all over the place”.  What’s even more amazing is how he’s learned to tune out my craziness and just move on with the evening…

Anyway today’s run was mellow.  I saw the same dude at the gym and he looked like he was gearing up for another race.   Little did he know… I was totally over it.