I kept asking myself WHY I was running today.  I’ve been feeling so tired lately and my life has become all about Allister, Zoey, and Amit… I hardly ever see my friends and I’m spending most of my days alone…. but I don’t want to give up on this… There’s this distant voice in my mind saying “this is worth it.  Don’t stop”

So… I ran 5 miles on the west side highway again… Thought about some new story ideas… thought about Woodstock…

Running has been keeping me in check… keeping my mind at ease… leveling me out when I start to worry about the direction Allister is going and if it’s a bigger risk than I could handle… It’s been keeping me afloat these days.

Zoey you learned how to kiss the other day.  My mom taught you how to do it and it’s probably the best thing I’ve ever felt on my cheek.  See… that’s the funny thing.  The two people in my life who I get to see all the time are probably the best people in the world.  I’m not unhappy… I’m just not built for a life of solo activity… I miss my life when I was surrounded by people.  I have to get back to that again…