My body is totally consumed with what its going through… I feel like a zombie. I’m tired. I’m not happy or sad or excited or nervous – I’m just tired.  Way too exhausted to even pay attention to silly feelings.  Just want a bed.

I know this is the perfect time to throw in the towel but as exhausting as each run is its just as rewarding.  I actually feel like I concurred something after a 5 mile run.

I got out there this morning and basically had an internal conversation saying to myself… You’re going to go through changes – they may be hard – but you’re not giving up – you’re going to run through this as long as its healthy and feels right.

All I feel in the morning is tiredness – I can run through tiredness.  I’ve run through intense hangovers and tiredness – I can do this.

Ran 3 times around the reservoir today – then back home… I feel good about that… I can easily sleep 5 hours right now… I want a mini cheese burger… I have zero desire to drink wine or whiskey… WHO AM I??

I had ice cream last night. BIG mistake – no more. No more silly things that I know will hurt me.

Jeez